breathe easy

staring right into the screen, my mind is so empty, aimless, hopeless, feeling so ridiculous of me. What is right? what is wrong? i have no idea..things are just changing so rapidly before i can face the reality. i always thought i could be a good bf and i am capable of being one, but i gues all that happened proved me to be a falure. Maybe i am just too insensitive, or maybe i am just not caring enough. it's so hard to balance up between freedom and restriction. Love is so beautiful and hurting at the same time. you nv know when u gonna hurt ones feeling unknowingly and when u would get hurt. It was such a big fall, almost gotten an heart attack and died off during the fall. but i am glad that a little rope saved me at the vey last second. everything is fine now...already shed all the tears i could and i guess i just have to continue with my rough journey and pray for a smooth one ahead. Thanks to all those were listening to me, giving me advises and spent time with me. really appreciated so much.

*my mind was giving up, but my heart and soul would nv allow that to happen*